yada yada yada. what a beautiful start of friday, NOT! my sickness attacks me again at 2am in the morning. yes! freaking 2am in the morning. and i thought that i could just bear with the pain but i guess not. this time, its different. its becoming worst. ohh yess. imagine that it attacks you at 2am, you tried to stay calm but it gotten worsen instead and because of that, you didn't sleep till the very next day plus the stupid heavy headaches that strikes as well.. waduhhh! so i can't do anything much, just bear with the pain till 630am in the morning, where i wake mum up to give me a massage since im too weak to stand or even walk.

mum suggests that i should go to the doctor since im freaking breathless at that point of time...so showered, change of clothes and went to the doctor. mum and sis accompanied me. told the doctor about what happened...and yes, the doctor told me to just call an ambulance the next time when im breathless cause he said that i can actually die from shortage of breath. ohmyyy. death? oh yes, speaking of death, mum told me that when i was about 3 months old, or should i say, another 2 more weeks than im 3 months old, i "died". yes, "die". i was so blue and so lembik that i can so called be pronounce "dead". mum called ambulance, the doctor did their best to "throw away" the flam [ sorry for the spelling mistake ], did some operation and i was warded in ICU. okay, this part biler dgr mcm best. ICU bebeh! so yeahh...can you imagine that? i still can't believe that im still alive now. im rocking 18 and 2 days old.

speaking about rocking 18...hell yeahh! im like finally 18! okay, not so fun..since i still can't watch R21 movie -.-" anyways, boyfriend came over to my place on the 18th november. he bought the presents, and yes, i llllllloooooooovvvvvveeeeee itt~! thank you! we had breakfast after that. so we wanted to watch 2012 since we've already watch Paranormal Activity...so baby thought of watching it at Jurong Point since i told him that im the Golden Village Member and i got to know that i would get 1 free ticket on my birthday. so we proceed, upon reaching there, baby asks them to confrim about the free ticket thingy but the guy said that we should print out the paper form the golden village website to indicate the free movie ticket. this part, im pissed off already. but muke tetap nk kene maintain. so i told baby its okay and we just pay the normal price will do. here's the good part! 2012 movie tickets at 5pm is sold out! ohhhmmyyy! what a day right? so we rushed off to Illuma instead.after the movie, we had dinner since both of us were so damn hungry. haha! after dinner, we proceed to some place that we usually hang out. yeahh, talked things out etc2. off home at 11 plus. overall, i had fun with you baby. you should know why right? hehe!

so that's about it. and school? ohhh yeaahhhh! im on my school holidays right now! woooohoooo~! yesterday was my last day of school. happy or whattt?! but still, i feel kinda bored whenever im at home. i need work. i need work! will try to look for one soon. but in the mean while, any lobang people? if got tell me okay? gotta go now. i've taken my medicine and im damn sleepy. damn those pills. bye!

i skipped school today. yes, I'm having that sickness again. stupid breathless sickness. i fucking hate it whenever it strikes me. makes me breathless at 2am, makes my head spinning, makes me go to the toilet every time, makes me vomit alot with blood. arrrgghhh! fucking hate it! now, I've no other choice but to stop breathing those thick smoke. you know what i mean. i had to, for my own good and its for my future too.

anyways, meet up with Bibi [boyfriend] yesterday, 12th november. it was Bibi's off day and also our 10th monthsary. initial plan is to catch Merantau Warrior with his sister and mum. but in the end, it was cancelled as his mum got some other matters to attended. so Bibi and i both went to the internet to check out interesting movies. Bibi wanna watch 2012 while me, i wanna watch Paranormal Activity. since both of us can't decide which to choose, we went youtube and see both movie trailers. after watched, we both still can't decide what to watch. so, in the end, Bibi tricked me by saying that he wants to watch 2012  and bought the tickets when he knows that i wanna watch Paranormal Activity. dumbdumb him! so, Paranormal Activity....i must say,both Bibi and i gave the movie 3 out of 5 stars. yes, its scary due to the sound effects plus the acting too. oh well, you guys just watch it and you know what im trying to say here. and ohh, the movie is based on a true story ok? so up next, movie treat on my birthday is..2012 !!! weeeee!

speaking of birthday, its the friday the 13th today. right? no no no ! its not Jason's birthday or what so ever. its my brother's birthday. yup yup yup. he's already 24 now. we had mini celebration for him. kak marina, brother's girlfriend, bought cakes along. i don't really know what's happening since i was sleeping. so, usually, in my family, after brother's birthday, its my birthday! and yes! another 5 more days to go! weeee! i'm so sexcited! i can't wait! oh yes, im already booked by Bibi on my birthday. gonna spend the whole day with him. woooohoooooo! after which, its his turn. HEY HEY HEY December BABIES!!!!

good afternoon to you readers! such a nice weather, such a nice day today. yeappp! its monday. no no, no monday blues for me today as there's no class! weeeee! but there's class for tomorrow. or should i say another final CAD test? yeahh. the test will be in the afternoon. thank god, i can sleep late for today. hehe! but i bet, boyfriend just wont allow me to sleep late anymore. especially when the following day is a schooling day. anyways, as mentioned on the previous post, i meet up with boyfriend in the morning. told you that my breathing is getting better right? well, im wrong. my breathing difficulties strike me again just as soon as i've showered and searching for clothes. but i just ignore and fight back the sickness. imagine this, you're in my position, can't breathe properly, walking towards the bus-stop, like as if you're lack of oxygen in the earth. errrr...get what im trying to say? i fought the sickness, all the way till habourfront, where i meet up with boyfriend. ohh, boyfriend wants to cancel our meeting since im breathless but i dont want to since im, you know, DEGIL. haha!

so we met. enjoyed our day. followed baby here and there. went back to his crib, washed up, breakfast, sleep. sent baby to work and im home.

gonna meet baby again later. and followed by thursday. gonna watch merantau. but i still wanna watch SAW IV. can i ? plssss?! but its r21 la seh. haiz.. i still wanna watch it! pls bby ?

as im typing right now, i am actually having breathing difficulties again. yes, again. and this is like the 3rd time im having this sickness for this week? damn. i seriously hate it when it happens. i just wished i could stop this sickness. anyways, its november baby! i know its already late for me to welcome november, but who cares anyway...HELLO NOVEMBER and BYEBYE OCTOBER! you should know why im so excited bout the month of november right? haha!

i've been busy with school last week. Reports/Projects finished. and now im left with phase test/class test. i studied like hell for MCT phase/theory test. lucky i did well for the phase test since i didn't do so well in the theory test. i left out one question that consists of 10 marks and told my CA about it. he told me not to worry as i did well for my phase test. im done with those two, but there's still MCT class test and CAD phase test next week. damn! but whatever it is, i still wanna pass my MCT. wanna get that 7 credits! or issit 6? blahhhhh. and CAD? i doubt i can get all the 5 credits. but who knows, im lucky enough to get all 5 credits. wow! but my target is to get MCT's all 7 credits! that's my target. and i guess, im left with only 2 weeks of schooling?afterwhich, holidays baby!  that if the class, or even any of us have already completed the projects/assignments that needed to be done. speaking of holidays, i need work baby. im in need of cash!!! damn!

i'm so gonna meet up with boyfriend tomorrow. or should i say later on? yeah! gonna fetch him form his workplace and off to catch movie. either jennifer's body or saw 6. hmmmm..... just wait and see what will happen later. confirm there's gonna be other plan. haha! chill at the garden can baby? please? hehe! and yes, im so gonna grab your butt and pinch it! you know i cant resist your butt baby! *inside joke* hahahaha!

i took one freaking hour just to finished this post and relaxing myself since im breathless. thank god, im feeling better now (:

ada udang di sebalik mee.

you know i know.

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